the funny thing about love

it can be ;

~ the most unfair thing

~ the thing that can get some bitch killed / or nigga (depending on how u look at it)

~ how “they” can LAUGH at something that’s not even funny ;

~ they always in your business

~ everything is supposed to go “their” way and NEVER yours

~ the happiest moments in your life

~ && the worst .

~ it’s blind

~ unkind

~ inconsiderate

~ unbelievable

~ time consuming

~ a fucking lie …

… all of it

but the REAL thing about love is

~ its unforgettable

~ its what you wanted

~ and no matter how deep you go or how far you travel – it’s always in your heart.

~ you can’t run from it

~ and it can’t be timed

~ it life …

like it or NOT

 

((no love lost – no love found))

Life

There is so much to say about life . Where does anyone find the time ??

Life is ;

So immeasurable ; There is NO TIME to even express true thoughts , feelings , emotions , critiques , EVERY MEMORY , EVERY HEART ACHE , etc. Life goes on – it doesn’t stop moving . Every minute is something special , every hour is 60 times worth , every day is abundant , the weeks are GRANDE , the months , years .

 

So unpredictable ; Who knows the next time one will get the chance PERIOD . Second chances are a God send but not everyone gets that .

 

So Beautiful ; You get the chance to breathe , the chance to love , to sing , dance , write , walk , talk , make a difference , be a change , touch someone like never before , hurt someone , create , reproduce , express yourself , learn , live , experience , and DIE . There’s beauty in it all

 

So Unfair ; Because of all the pain and sorrow , guilt and shame , depression , anger , sin .

 

Life is soooooooo many things , but like I stated before ; Who has the time to say it all ?!

What’s life mean to you ? Are you living yours to your full potential . Everyday is special , everyday is a gift . Are you thankful ???

 

- Think about it =))

Identification

I worry myself all too much .

I also find it a problem when I'm asked "how do you feel ?" and "what do you mean ?" and even "why'd you do that ?" . i'm going thru (what i think is an identity crisis)

there's not alot of people i know who can admit to that but WTH , idc ?
i do alot of things because it feels good , or it feels right and at the end of the day thats what i want my life to be ! (i wanna feel good !!!) but strangly enuff , #shitgotold.


i've been very naughty ,
i've been very good ,
i don't like alot of people ,(why ... idk , frankly don't care)
why am i even typing this blog right now ?? lol

it's just sooo much going on wit me .
i'm content with my life and all the subjects in it but why ????? IDK ! wow

i guess my message is : ITS NEVER TOO LATE TO JUST SIT DOWN AND TALK TO YOURSELF , ABOUT YOURSELF . come to some realizations you NEVER KNEW EXISTED ! be able to know yourself IN and OUT ! don't fool yourself becuz your environment calls for a certain behavior. BE YOU .

(you are you -- this is truer than true . There's no1 out there that's more you-er than, well...YOU .) a lil Dr. Suess for ya dawg ass .
i'm out for now

ITS BEEN SO LONG

wow , its been over a year since i've blogged and alreadyy -- you're outta the loop lol.

thus far :

i've become well aware of my talent , and i'm expressing it more and more everydayy.
i'm not the young little BITCH i used to be . now i'ma more MATURED ONE ; lls
i've lost some shitty friends and gained some amazing ones
i'm single , but still willing to work on every flaw that disengaged my past relationship .
well , i'm still HOTT as FUCK ! haha
i'm different , in every aspect and that makes life BEAUTIFUL !

got some new pix TAKE A LOOK .
luv u guys <3 !











ciao babyy x0x0x muahh !

When enough is ENOUGH

There's plenty of situations where enough is ENOUGH !
Today's topic is "Friends" ((notice the Quotations)) lls

So when is enough , ENOUGH ?

If you are uncomfortable around these certain creatures to the point where u can't be in the same room with them . Then it's about time you DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT ... or LEAVE . Enough is ENOUGH. You can go around discomforted all you want , but who wants to be uncomfortable ??

Wut's Yo Deal?

ok.... so obviously [[unimportant people]] feel the need to cross the line.
idk here??? should it be this serious?
\\let's take a look see//

=File{Case}No.1= (the other "friend")
Someone you know is in a relationship. They have this "friend" that they haven't been talkin' to in a while. (in some instances;;ignoring this person)
The reason is obvious. Ur friend's girlfriend doesn't like the hoe...OOOO -- "friend"
(my B)
So the lusty lil slut -- "friend" -- goes to ur friend and is concerned as to why he abandoned her. Y doesn't he talk to her anymore? Her feelings are hurt...it's not fair...blah blah blah BULLSHIT. And to let it be known to ur friend's ((raging, hot-headed and totally outta control)) girlfriend, the "friend" posts something on ur friend's wall.
of course the statement is wrong...cuz the lusty lil bitch is DUMB.
of course ur friend's girlfriend said something back.
of course this has been goin on for 24hours.
of course
of course
of course....
((should it be that serious??))

=File(Case)No.2=(freshmeat frenzyyy)
Handful of the freshman girls attending JU are fast in the ass, all in the grass, have a free pass, need to join mass, harass all they class, needs prayer and a glass --of oil!
((stamped))
((should it be THAT serious??))

=File [Case]No.3=(Roommate , who ?)
HERE'S WHERE SHIT GETS REAL !
Roommates don't necessarily have to be you BFF ! NO, like really . you don't have to like a BITCH . (no sweat) . sooo , drama occurs in the year of 2009 right before 2010 . 2010 is nearly gone and what happens ??? SHIT gets brought up AGAIN ! and NO silly , not by me ((cuz this Case is about me and my "roommates" )) , or ANY1 who cares for that matter; but by a roommate who is gone . FIN . DONE-ZO . sooo , apparently there have been "rumors" (which i'm sure are true) about an ex-roommate who is STILL til this day - talking shit- HAHA . my personal response to that is POSTING THIS BLOG to TWITTER and FACEBOOK because at the end of the dayy NO ONE CAME TO ANY1 ABOUT THEIR PROBLEMS TO THEIR FACE ... SO OF COURSE , KNOWING ME -- THIS HAPPENS =)) there was also word of a recent/former roommate who was the ex-roommate's inside "man" calling her up , telling her SHIT that happens at the JU . smh . its beyond me , and honestlyy IDC much . i know without a doubt that what my ex-roommate said about each and every1 of us .. YES US (me, B , A , and W) will come to light . cuz 4real , the girl ain't ya friend . smh haha but oh well . i consider this FILE CASE CLOSED . FOREVA ! =))

##Who gives a f*ck??? huh, huh? NOT meeeee!##
-more to come-

NUMB

goodbye Apathy.

it's a feelin' that surprises me .
how i can feel this keyboard, or my fingers pressing every key is still unknown to me. I'm numb.

nomore feeling inside of me.
energy=gone.
emotions....pointless.
numb.

the...i spent a portion of my life concentrating on something more than myself-i hope i don't get hurt-and i hope i'm not wasting my time-but start beginnin' to realize that i could possibly be....feeling.
numb.

goodbye Apathy.

not even if i tried my hardest to cry will tears come about.
i guess they're tired too.
laying in a fetal position, posted to my mattress....numb.

mind blank, can't think to wander.
motivation, inspiration...numb.
truly deserving but always getting the short end
of the stick...smh...

Goodbye Apathy